the tarot diaries | pt.1
I'm letting you in because the cards told me to
A just-for-funsies reading to dust off the deck. I didn’t ask the cards anything in particular— didn’t ask anything at all, actually. I have this bad habit of taking some things in life too seriously, tarot being one of them. But the cards always seem to know what’s been lingering.
Justice:
Balance— in terms of work-life balance and what I envision for myself— has been on my mind almost constantly for as long as I can recall. I have a vision of being able to balance my personal life with my work life in a way that allows me to have complete freedom over how my day-to-day looks and feels. Being able to work around my personal life, rather than the other way around, as I have been. I’ve found that what seems equal and fair to others, is not the same for me. I want something entirely different for myself that what others have accepted.
Five of Pentacles:
I have spent a long while contemplating what and how I want my life to look. My pinterest vision board has collected not even a speck of dust.
Perhaps too much pondering and not enough recognizing what is right in front of me and available for me to live in my ~dream life~ at this very moment. The vision might not fully be complete, but there are pieces of the puzzle lying around for me to pick-up and notice.
Four of Pentacles:
Part of the reason why there is no traction in turning my dreams into reality is because I feel as if I have to make it happen completely on my own, accepting no help or assistance from anyone else. To do so makes me feel…icky. Like, what if I accept help from someone and then nothing comes of what I’ve been wishing for? Then I disappoint myself and someone else. But that isn’t how it has to be, and I know this. Maybe I don’t have to accept help in the way that I have been thinking. Maybe it’s more so about allowing others to see me doing something, anything, that puts me further on the path to achieving my dreams. The idea of being perceived has always been something I have downright loathed. But..part of my dream is people seeing me for who I truly am, and that being part of how I provide for myself. After all, being seen means that I am doing something well enough that people take notice.
Two of Pentacles:
This feels to me like finding balance within and being able to arround myself in it consistently enough to where I’m making movement. I’m able to envision what I want for myself, and also make consistent steps (even if very tiny) towards it, constantly. We know that Rome wasn’t built in a day, and yet I continue to think that one day my dreams will just magically fall into my lap all at once, without requiring me to do any of the dirty work that leads up to that victorious moment. This is about finding the balance between dreaming it, and putting in the work towards it. Dreams without action are just..whatever the saying is.
Ace of Pentacles:
Now is the time! You know what you want. My gut has been dropping hint after hint. I feel that warm, tingly feeling whenever I think of doing something, and that, my friend, is a sign from the universe approving that thought. Whatever it is might not be the end of the path (or maybe it will, who knows!) but it is always worth at least trying.
Six of Wands:
If all of what we’ve just discussed is followed, we’ll be feeling victorious in no time. 6 is my lucky number, after all.
Sometimes I pull cards that play out a sequence that just feels too good to be true. This is one of those times. Only I’m not staying sedentary as I normally would. Just you watch (because I’m okay with that, right?).
Let me know if you interpreted this reading differently. I love learning how others see the cards.